This is a question I often get asked. In such a crowded market, my consistency and enthusiasm for Behind the Schmile..:) often leads people around me to think my blog is more ‘popping’ than it is. My blog hasn’t grown at the rate I thought it would. I’ll be honest and say that it’s somewhat disappointing, but not to the extent that it keeps me up at night.
If you’ve been following me for a while, you’ll know that I first started blogging on a site called Our Thoughts, Your Eyes… I never checked the stats. I never felt there was a need to. It wasn’t until late in 2015 that I finally decided to look at the numbers and I was pleasantly surprised. So when I launched Behind the Schmile..:) I automatically assumed that the success would follow me. Rather, growth has fluctuated.
So why do I do it?
Why do I continue to ‘compete’ against every Tom, Dick and Harry with a laptop and a fancy camera? Why haven’t I focussed my posts on relationships, hair and makeup? Afterall, these have been my most popular posts. When people ask me these questions, essentially what they are asking is why I haven’t conformed. So now that I’ve phrased it that way, is there any need for me to answer?
My blog is for me: my release, my hobby, something I can call my own. Something that forces me to reflect on my behaviour, something that forces me to grow and develop, something to keep my mind occupied when my thoughts begin to wander into dangerous territory and most importantly, something I can share with the world at my own leisure.
Our generation has been built on sharing our lives. We share (or at least used to) statuses on Facebook. Splatter our thoughts on Twitter. Shamelessly post best selfies on Instagram and save the behind the scenes for Snapchat. Blogging is simply another form of social media. It just so happens to be my favourite. If you have me on Snapchat you probably already know that I post what I want, whenever I want, regardless of who cares to watch. The prinicple is the same, I do it for me and share it, so if you happen to be interested, it’s available for you too.
I turned into a statistics freak when I first launched Behind the Schmile..:). I was confused at how much support my friends who had recently launched their own blogs were getting and how little attention I was getting. That was when I first wrote Don’t Get Lost in the Sauce. I would check my numbers daily. But what I noticed was that whether or not I liked the numbers I saw: I kept writing. Because I was doing it for me. When I got negative feedback it fuelled me: I kept writing. Whenever I received positive feedback, I was always taken aback, shocked that someone had even bothered to read. To hear that someone was inspired by the words that I had strung together, or that they could relate to my thoughts or even that I had led them to think more deeply about a topic: it’s all motivating. I kept writing.
But it isn’t what keeps me going.
Long story short I realised that it really didn’t matter what others thought, good or bad, because I do this for me. That’s what kept me going. Me.
So no, I won’t change my style, I won’t try to be more ‘on trend’ and I won’t change my topics, because then it wouldn’t be me.
If you’re interested, I hope you enjoy reading the rest of what I have to say.