Apparently… You Believe in Me

Suffering from low self-esteem is not uncommon in today’s society. There are many reasons for this, the most common in my opinion are: feelings of not belonging feelings of incompetence- self doubt pressure to do well This is especially prevalent in a university setting. There’s always the pressure to achieve a certain grade but the self-doubt you harbour can lead… Read more →

Growing Pains: Overcoming Childhood Issues

Before I begin, yes this is another long disclaimer. I thought you should know how much I struggled in uploading this, and many other posts for that matter. I wrote this back in February and I have been hesitant to publish. When it was originally drafted, I wrote with a certain group of people in mind. But that same month… Read more →

Everything Happens For A Reason… Or Does It?

“Everything happens for a reason”: words spoken during your most desperate hour amidst sweet lies uttered to soothe your soul. Engulfed in Frustration, Embarrassment, Agony and Regret, sometimes “a reason” can make the struggle worthwhile. “A reason” is the oxygen tank when you’re suffocated in confusion and this “reason” keeps your breaths steady when guilt creeps into your dreams. We… Read more →

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Not Everything is Political: #UnpopularPoliticalOpinion

I have two extremes:  I’m either talking too much and can’t be stopped despite who is listening (which is usually no-one thanks to my supposedly monotone voice) or I’m completely silent and I’m 100% focused on listening. Usually, these periods of silence are what lead to these rants. By writing things down rather than subjecting my voice to blending in… Read more →

Passion, Pain & Purpose

When it comes to finding our purpose, many, including myself, are caught up in the wrong things. We misunderstand what it is we’re asking God for and end up working towards goals that haven’t been destined for us. Then we start wondering why things aren’t working out the way we feel they should. People of all ages struggle with identifying… Read more →

Cut It: 10 ‘Friends’ That Gotta Go!

You’re most likely reading Behind the Schmile..:) because you want to know my thoughts on self-development; well part of becoming a better version of yourself is having the right kinds of people around you, that means getting rid of those that don’t fit the bill. I am the QUEEN of cutting people off, or at least I used to be.… Read more →

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Lessons From My Social Media Break

I took a break from blogging which almost instantly turned into a social media break. Here are a few of the lessons I learnt: Some People Won’t Notice Let’s get one thing clear, I didn’t expect many people to notice. After all, there are only a handful of ‘friends’ that I would say I’m checking for. If those few people… Read more →


A problem I noticed amongst many of my friends, especially those of faith, is that they often feel undeserving. Why? The ‘problem’ with faith/religion is that it gives a long list of things that you shouldn’t do. This isn’t an entirely bad thing, rules are needed in life. But committing certain sins led them to believe that they were no… Read more →

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Take a Break Before you Break

Believe it or not, I haven’t written a blog post in about 3 months. I decided to take a break. I went through a period in the past where I wrote so much that I have been able to keep up with weekly uploads but in the simplest of terms: this shit is exhausting. How can blogging be exhausting? Well,… Read more →